Perfunctory Functioning

I was digging the scene

Took a step back and realized things aren’t always what they seem

I’m officially out of my comfort zone

In the white mans world and I’m a extraterrestrial, far from home

I tried to walk the walk and talk their talk, but they new I was from the outside

I tried to live the same life but the bill collectors knew it was a cheap disguise

And with Sallie Mae on my tail, it’s hard to hide

I’m in the big city, nitty gritty, please… take a number

DC knows the rich, the poor, the satiated, pain and the hunger

Where I fall in line is 75% conspiracy and 25% chance

Make it quick, because this city isn’t big on romance

It’s a inside job, and they're never hiring

And the people who show weakness, well, they’re expiring

Fledging to the dog eat dog aggression

Spent a few months in futile depression

But for every second I sleep a minute of work goes out the door

Learned that I had to push even if my entire body is sore

One option, SOAR

The champ is here, ROAR

Beat the unbeatable

Defeat the undefeated

In the throne is where I will be seated

Control what you can

Make a plan, but know that things never go according to plan

Stay encouraged, Christ brings you strength

When you feel like you can go an inch, go the extra length

And keep going until you have nothing left

A lost soul, partially educated black girl can be the best

Humble yourself and work hard

And in all things, acknowledge God

Reintroduced

When life introduced me to you, it also reintroduced me to myself

This doesn’t mean you’re the one

But you caused my security knot to be undone

Now I’m questioning everything that I ever known

Telling myself to just hang up the phone

He is washed up, with all of his washed up dreams

But then he makes it look easier then it seems

To drop your entire life and live for the moment

But reality is way too potent

Is the entire universe conspiring with me?

I’m fragile and regret cuts me deeply

I want to be like Spike and do the right thing

Should I be like Mike and trade the jump shot for the swing?

There must be something I can master

But then I cover the insecurity with laughter

It doesn’t matter

Telling me I can be anything is just his way to flatter

I’ll stick to crunching numbers and commonplace meetings

Going to and from work, crowded subway, no seating

A little bitter because your life is where I would have seen myself

This doesn’t mean you the one

Just another tangled web has been spun

I don’t want to sabotage my present, but how else can I win

I don’t want to sabotage us, when I dig within

You reintroduced me to me, hi, it’s nice to meet you

I took a good look at myself and said ‘it’s a competition, and I think that I can beat you’