Employeed

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare


Wish I could exist in a world without a care


Everywhere I look I see something getting took


So it just makes we wonder, ‘where is my share’


I was on a hustle, hustling hard, but it was the wrong path


Decided to do engineering because I was ‘good at math’


Now I’m at a cross road trying to figure out what’s next


Finally made it to the bus stop and they told me the ‘success’ just left


Miss one, another 15 minutes, another one isn’t coming


So now I have to walk down the long and narrow


Trying to stay positive, humming; ‘his eyes were on the sparrow’


I made some mistakes, and it’s not too late to change


I just want to be successful with ‘Dr’ in front of my name


Money isn’t my motivation, but to figure out my calling


Whatever it is, it still would be nice to be BALLING


Now the other subject at hand is the ‘yes you can’


Believing in yourself, and accomplishing the impossible


Proving to the world, that this girl is unstoppable


Jumping over hurdles like I was a beast in track & field


Fighting until my destiny is revealed

Overstand

I understand that it is a cold world even when it’shot outside

And a man would rather lose his life before losinghis pride

I understand that celebrities have the most moneybut they get everything for free

And that black men cannot be taken seriouslyunless they own a degree

I understand that in our generation SEX sells

And people who fornicate, lie, cheat, and steal,preach about how gays are going to hell

I understand that most rappers focus on sex,money, drugs, and guns

I understand that “church girls” aresometimes  the “worse ones”

I understand that every man is CREATED equal

But BACK THEN they didn’t even considered BLACKS aspeople

Say Something Crazy

For the record, I loved you

Or at least I tried

My biggest regret was letting you see me cry

I was tripping in this relationship, which you loved me not

And while in it I lost the essence of me,  snapshot

You kicked my heart, kick, kick, kicked my heart

And that was cool

I would dust it off and give it back to you, I was such thefool

I was lost in Shutter Island, going crazy with your mindgames

I did wrong, you did wrong, it didn’t matter, I was to blame

Fast forward to today, and I couldn’t thank you enough

Sometimes break ups can be more than tough

heartbreak shatters dreams

But through the cracks leaked  higher esteem

I would never let another make me crazy, make me baby, makeme crazy

Perfunctory Functioning

I was digging the scene

Took a step back and realized things aren’t always what they seem

I’m officially out of my comfort zone

In the white mans world and I’m a extraterrestrial, far from home

I tried to walk the walk and talk their talk, but they new I was from the outside

I tried to live the same life but the bill collectors knew it was a cheap disguise

And with Sallie Mae on my tail, it’s hard to hide

I’m in the big city, nitty gritty, please… take a number

DC knows the rich, the poor, the satiated, pain and the hunger

Where I fall in line is 75% conspiracy and 25% chance

Make it quick, because this city isn’t big on romance

It’s a inside job, and they're never hiring

And the people who show weakness, well, they’re expiring

Fledging to the dog eat dog aggression

Spent a few months in futile depression

But for every second I sleep a minute of work goes out the door

Learned that I had to push even if my entire body is sore

One option, SOAR

The champ is here, ROAR

Beat the unbeatable

Defeat the undefeated

In the throne is where I will be seated

Control what you can

Make a plan, but know that things never go according to plan

Stay encouraged, Christ brings you strength

When you feel like you can go an inch, go the extra length

And keep going until you have nothing left

A lost soul, partially educated black girl can be the best

Humble yourself and work hard

And in all things, acknowledge God

Reintroduced

When life introduced me to you, it also reintroduced me to myself

This doesn’t mean you’re the one

But you caused my security knot to be undone

Now I’m questioning everything that I ever known

Telling myself to just hang up the phone

He is washed up, with all of his washed up dreams

But then he makes it look easier then it seems

To drop your entire life and live for the moment

But reality is way too potent

Is the entire universe conspiring with me?

I’m fragile and regret cuts me deeply

I want to be like Spike and do the right thing

Should I be like Mike and trade the jump shot for the swing?

There must be something I can master

But then I cover the insecurity with laughter

It doesn’t matter

Telling me I can be anything is just his way to flatter

I’ll stick to crunching numbers and commonplace meetings

Going to and from work, crowded subway, no seating

A little bitter because your life is where I would have seen myself

This doesn’t mean you the one

Just another tangled web has been spun

I don’t want to sabotage my present, but how else can I win

I don’t want to sabotage us, when I dig within

You reintroduced me to me, hi, it’s nice to meet you

I took a good look at myself and said ‘it’s a competition, and I think that I can beat you’